Category: Poetry

Original poetry pieces

Saying Sorry

I could not wait for another full week before posting this one because it is something that has been weighing heavily on my mind these days. It is taking a lot of pride and courage to say what I am about to say… I have to be brutally honest and this is something I am working on a lot these days. I am talking about this issue because it just came up with a friend and someone else that I know (I am not naming any names for their protection, but I hope that they are reading this). Everybody who really knows me know and understand that I am a nice person (or at least I try to be). I am also one of those people who do not get mad or angry all that much (well I do sometimes, but I keep it in).

One thing I have been working on is apologizing when I get angry and take it out on someone when we both know they did not deserve it. Like I said before, this just recently happened with one of my good friends. I do not want to make any excuses, but sometimes things build up and you lash out on people. On the flip side, people have to tell me (especially right away) if I make them angry, upset or sad because I cannot always read people and it would be better if they tell me about it rather than telling other people or just straight up not telling me (even if I get defensive which does happen). I know other people feel this way too and we can all work on it, I promise.

I know that I feel appreciative when people apologize and say sorry to me because it shows me they care enough so I know other people would appreciate the same when I do the same. I just want everybody to realize that yes, there are times when you need to apologize for some mistake that you made (even if you do not know what exactly you did or even if it is a small mistake), but do not feel like you need to apologize when you are being yourself. There is a big difference between the two. There is this quote I found to sum it all up perfectly. “You will always be too much of something for some people: too big, too loud, too soft, too emotional, too edgy. If you round out your edges, you will lose your edge. Apologize for unintentionally hurting someone…profusely. But do not apologize for being who you are.”

So I urge my readers to apologize for something that they did, no matter how big or small. Sometimes you did not mean to do it intentionally. It happens to all of us, even to the really good people. Forget about your pride and ego because it is not always about you, it is about the other person and making sure they know how much you care. If you or they do not care, then why does it matter? Some relationships and friendships (especially with loved ones) are far more important than others. People need to realize that more. Here is a poem, written as an apology for everybody (including those who I have unintentionally hurt). Nobody is ever weak (especially in these particular moments). Just know that it is never okay to intentionally hurt someone (no matter if they deserve it or not).

Being Sorry

Wounded ego and pride.

Forget about my feelings

And be able to put them aside.

 

I am the one who is healing

Someone else rather

Than just myself. Revealing

 

Myself is hard. I want to gather

You up close to my heart so you

Hear sincerity. You are my brother

 

And my blood sister too

So I feel sorry. Anger is no

Excuse for bidding you adieu

 

For good. I hope I do not blow

This opportunity with you because

You have always meant so

 

Much to me, no matter is every vase

Has shattered into thousands of small

Pieces. I do not want to cause

 

You any more pain. For all

Of the things I have said and

Done I apologize for hitting the wall.

Getting to Know Each Other

“Knowing a person is like music, what attracts us to them is their melody, and as we get to know who they are, we learn their lyrics.” It is often the case that when we first meet someone we want to get to know them very well. It is just natural instinct to have (and there is nothing wrong with it). I see it as being curious because you want to know more about them and who they are as a person. We have to spend time and get to know someone even if it is scary or intimidating. I know that we are not supposed to make judgements about other people, but those could wait until you really get to know someone super well. Only then can you decide if you want to be friends with this person, something more, or nothing at all.

You could have known this person for days, weeks, months, years and yet you still may not know everything about that person. That is perfectly okay because while people may be getting to know each other in a short amount of time, for other people it takes a longer amount of time, especially if you see yourself with this person intimately. Honestly, I want to get to know someone before deciding if I want some kind of relationship (even a friendship) with them. There is this study I found online (especially for couples) that says it takes 2 to 4 years to getting to know someone completely. For example, I have known this one person since high school. We never really hung out until recently (just last year when we reconnected). I have still been trying to get to know this person and I have been letting this person get to know me as well.

So I encourage my readers (and everybody else out there) to getting to know other people and never being afraid of asking difficult questions. We are social people and have interaction with people on a daily basis (unless you live in complete isolation). The truth is that we are getting to know each other (regardless if we already know this person or not). Sometimes we have to get to know someone all over again too (meaning the same person again). Be brave, be curious, and be fearless. Do not be afraid to go on a deeper level with someone. We are caring people (on the surface and deep down inside). It is all a part of living and being human.

Getting to Know Each Other

Know her for more than the girl
Who laughs and smiles all the time.
Nobody knows that she bangs her
Head against the wall, trying to make
Sense of the injustice of the world.
She is also trying to make sense of
You because the confident person
She used to know is no longer there
Anymore. You are replaced by
Someone who is unsure and
Unconfident. She cannot be there
For you anymore than she can
Be there for herself. She wants you
To let her in past the wall you keep
Building higher up every time.
Let her in because you know deep
Down that you should trust her.
She cannot let you lead yourself off
The ledge like that anymore. She is
Never careless or selfish. If anything,
She cares too much and that is how
She gets hurt. She trusts too easily
And knows that she deserves the best
Only because she has been through
The worst. You may see her as blessed,
Lucky and with the world below
Her feet, but she does not view herself
The same way. Just like she thinks there
Are better things ahead for you when
You think you are no good and unloved
Person. Let her get to know you just like
She wants you to get to know her.
She knows that she is imperfect and is
Not ordinary just like you are not
Just any ordinary person.

Being Normal

Who in their right mind would tell people to be normal? What does normal even mean. When I look it up in the dictionary (or on dictionary.com), one of the definitions that it gives is the following. “Conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.” So in other words it is not anything weird or unstructured. Pardon my language, but screw being normal. In my mind, being normal is a waste of time. Yes, some things are meant to be normal or regularly structured, but a lot of things (in fact, pretty much everything else) is not meant to be normal.

I have opened up before and shared some of the challenges I have had with my learning disability. For those of you who do not know about my LD (learning disability) I am going to describe some of the history behind it. When I was born, I was diagnosed with a loosely defined “hypotonia” (also known as low muscle tone). I did not know how to use my muscles to walk and talk (in fact my parents thought I would never be able to talk). I have a hard time receiving and understanding information. I also have short term memory issues. Here I am 25 years later after going through many years of speech and occupational therapy. I was also in special education up until I was in middle school (and I graduated from special education in middle school). I am truly thankful for the countless amount of support I had to get over my learning challenges (and I still have many challenges to this very day too). That list includes my parents (because they were very much new in learning about this), my speech and occupational therapists, as well as my teachers and everybody else who I forgot to mention before.

I felt like it was important to share some of the history behind my LD because I hope people begin to understand me better, but also because my learning disability is a part of my own normal. In fact I have a shirt that says “Be your own normal.” I used to be a little embarrassed by my LD because I did not want to get any special treatment and I wanted to be just like everybody else. I do not think that it was until in high school and college that I began to embrace it because I realized that my LD is a huge part of who I am. So when people say to be normal or be like other people, I really want to say screw it.

Yeah, there are people who are like me (with their disability and challenges), but in my mind everybody has their own definition of “normal.” I cannot help but be weird and unordinary (so what?) That is what people should really like about you, that you are like nobody else. There is this quote by Dr. Seuss that says “Why fit in when you were born to stand out?” And I really have to agree with him. If everything was normal and everybody fit in, what is the point? This world would be too normal and too ordinary. No, that will not work.

I know that I have said a lot in this post, but that is because this subject is very important to me. You really should not listen to other people and what they have to say anyways. I do have one more quote to share before I include the poem for this post. This is a quote that I find highly motivating and in part, has inspired me to write this poem. The quote by the way is by Michelle Rose Gilman (she has become one my role models and she is a huge inspiration to me as a woman. She has her own business called Well-Heeled Warrior). “She had a gypsy soul and warrior spirit. She made no apologies for her wild heart. She left normal and regular to explore the outskirts of magical and extraordinary.” Here is the poem, now included. I hope that my readers enjoy. Here is one last reminder for my readers and everybody else and that is to not be afraid to find your own normal because like I said before everybody has their own definition of normal. I hope that everybody embraces who they truly are. Cheers!!!!
Her Own Normal

She never wanted to be normal. What she wanted
Was to be wild and crazy, but in her eyes that was
Perfectly okay. It was never in her blood

To have a calm heart. She did not want applause.
She always wanted to roam and be set free.
She did not care if people’s jaws

Hit the floor or not. She wanted to be airy
And full of light. She still had this fire to her
That nobody else had. She wanted so badly

To prove people wrong. She had this desire to stir
Everything up until everything became so mixed
And jumbled together so that everything became a blur.

She is not looking to be mended or fixed
So she can look like everybody else. She is meant
To be broken and tangled. She always nixed

The idea of being completely normal. She is spent
And tired of living up to all the high standards.
She wants every part of life to have a dent

And cracks. She did not want to go backwards
In time when the past is in the past and she
Was never looking for the correct answers.

She is not looking for mistakes. She just wanted to be
A part of something new, fresh and out of the box.
That woman will always be the whole part of me.

Running Away

When we are kids, didn’t we (at some point) have the urge to run away? I sometimes had that urge as a kid, but I have that feeling more as an adult (honestly more than I did when I was a kid). There is word for that urge, which in this  case is an overwhelming urge (I just recently learned about this word) and it is “drapetomania.” Running away is such a strong image. People think of running away when things get tough, difficult or challenging. Some people even have the urge to run away to get away from the same old thing every day and they are sick of it. That is why some people (including myself) like travelling. We use it as a way of escape.

Another reason why people want to run away is to see if anybody truly cares about us because in our minds if people really care about us they would chase after us (something seen in a lot of romance books and movies) or would not want us to run away. However, this part of running away becomes difficult because sometimes the people who care about us (the most) urge us maybe not so much to run away (especially forever), but to run away and travel the world especially. What I want in my life is for people to urge me to not so much run away, but to start walking and enjoying everything. Those are the people who really care about us. Running away in a sense has a lot to do with rushing (another closely related topic that I have talked about in another one of my blog posts).

I was recently reading a wonderfully written book (titled “All For Anna”). It was written by Nicole Deese. It is a heart wrenching book, mostly about loss, but also about hope. I was reading that book and it inspired me in part to write this particular blog post for my readers. In the book, one of the main characters, Victoria, deals with a tragic loss of a young girl named Anna (I do not want to give too much away), but Victoria uses running (in the literal sense) as a coping mechanism. That is what I think about when it comes to running and I like I have said before we use it as a way to get away from our problems and our pain that we try to deal with on a daily basis.

I want to encourage my readers that it is okay to have that urge to run away, but do not run away from your problems because that will get you nowhere. Sometimes you are even lucky enough to find someone who will run away with you. It reminds me of this quote. “Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will come after you.” Keep strong and hang in there!

Running Away

I am taking off and trying to run

Away as far as I possibly can.

I want to go towards the sun

 

And throw away the set plan

As I go there. I want you to come

With me because it is better than

 

Being alone. Every crumb

We leave behind does not matter.

It brings me comfort with your thumb

 

Against my cheek. Let the ashes scatter

And for me to stop running. I want to

Start walking and to enjoy the splatter

 

Of the colors of the sunset that skew

With my head no longer. Every piece

Of rubble is another reminder for you

 

And I to slow down. Let us cease

This disarray and getting away

From our problems. Every crease

 

Is old and boring. I want you to stay

With me for this long journey

Ahead of us. Nothing should weigh

 

Heavily on our minds. Our worry

Goes out the window along with

Everything else. Let the unworthy

 

Things go. I am no wordsmith

To explain the things in my head,

But everything is more than a myth.

 

I want to leave my same old bed

Behind and sleep in a brand

New place. This new thread

 

We are walking on feels like sand

Beneath our feet. It is no small

Defeat to walk and to stand

 

Among those who saw me as a doll.

I am not breakable and I will not crack.

Do not back me up against the wall

 

Otherwise I will let everything black

Out and fade away. Then I will

Never be willing to ever come back.

Turning 25

Hi everybody. Sorry I have not written for a while (things have been way crazy with the start of classes and all of that). I just celebrated turning 25 (just a couple of weeks ago). For some reason I was really dreading turning 25 this year, in part because 25 is another important age for me and maybe my life is not as together as I thought it was going to be at this age (also 25 is making me feel a little bit old these days). I also thought 18, 21 and now 25 are important ages because in my mind they signify something. Birthdays have come and gone in the past, but this one hit me a lot harder than some of the others.

I was talking to a lot of people about feeling mixed about turning 25 this year (including my therapist who I see once a month). I thought that I would be in a stable job and relationship. I also thought that I would have a better sense of my life and when I fast forward to when I actually turned 25, I have no job (at least not yet) and I do not have a steady/serious relationship with any guy (not yet). I was having pretty high expectations about where my life is going versus where it is not going. My therapist pointed out that I have to throw out my rules and expectations about turning 25 (because they do not need to be applied to my life).

There is at least a few life lessons to be learned here. The first one is to throw out the rules and just enjoy your life wherever you are. The second thing to remember is that age does not matter. The third is to experience the lows, but do not forget to experience the highs too. There is no set rules or expectations of where your life should be and pay no attention to those who are way ahead of you (they are a completely different kind of people). This is a perfect moment to mention a quote (that I just recently found) to sum up what I mean. “Just because you took longer than others, doesn’t mean you failed. Remember that.” Sometimes when I get discouraged, I have to remember how far I have come.

I hope that all of my readers embrace all that they have accomplished and remember that we all have our whole life ahead of us (especially when we are young). I hope that you enjoy this poem that I have included below. It serves as a reminder and that we are not alone (when it comes to being in a dark place). Hold on tight.

Leave Me Here

The water is swallowing me up whole
And I am left without enough oxygen to
Breathe. I fight to keep my control,

But I want to fade away and turn blue
Because I am tired of being everyone
Else’s anchor. I am done being the glue

To hold everything together. Take the gun
And shoot me in the heart because I would
Rather die than live in misery. Take the sun

Away because I want to sink to where I should
Be, at the bottom surrounded by complete
Darkness and blackness. I am just driftwood

And utterly useless. I am not tidy or neat.
I would rather be messy and bloody so that
I can be ignored or passed by on the street

Without a second glance. I could be flat
Like a cardboard box and you would still never
Look my way. Hit me right in the gut

And it is guaranteed to hurt. It is better to sever
This while we still can rather than regretting
It all in the end. I would never have to endeavor

Or burden anybody again. You will be forgetting
Me soon enough just like everybody else has. So
While you are the one who is jetting

Off somewhere else and new, I want you to show
Me that I am right by leaving me here to wilt away
Just like everything else. I want to feel the low.

Getting Lost

It happens to all of us at some point. We start off on the right path or heading towards the right destination and somehow along the way we get utterly lost. Do not think of it as a bad thing because getting lost is just a part of life. To be honest, right now I am in a part of my life where I am lost, but I am heading towards something great (or at least I hope so one day) and I am sure that a lot of people feel the same way. There is this quote that I found that is absolutely amazing. “Just because my path is different doesn’t mean I am lost.” What that quote is saying is that everybody’s path is different and that is perfectly okay. It is also saying that does not necessarily mean that we are lost. It is just the way of life (as I was saying before).

I know that we all get lost, but sometimes it is better to not feel so alone in getting lost. In other words, you have to find someone who is not afraid of getting lost with you. It does not matter if it is a friend, a family member or someone you love (like a partner, etc.), but you should be able to lean on them and trust them. Another thing that goes along with being lost is being found (sometimes again). There is this back and forth thing going on with being lost and then being found. Sometimes we want to be found and other times we do not want to be found (in other words we want to be lost forever).

I want to encourage my readers (that would be you who is reading this) to take advantage of this time when you are lost and realize that although it may seem like a sucky thing like that is something wonderful. It means that maybe you are not happy with how your life is going and hence getting lost is the best solution to that. There is a quote (that I love) that explains why getting lost is a good thing. “Getting lost is a good way to find yourself.” I personally think that in those moments where you get lost (which can be scary) is when you truly find yourself and what you truly care about. I hope that you enjoy this piece (and get literally lost within it if you want to). Cheers!! I still hope that you all find someone like this in your life (and trust me that they may be worth it completely).

Lost Together

I was more afraid of losing you rather than

Losing myself. It was not that I was getting

Lost, it was the fact that I could and can

 

Get lost with you. We were not jetting

Off to somewhere new and foreign

Because we are not worried about fitting

 

In with anybody. Together we have fallen,

But we are getting up and continuing on.

Sometimes this big world is barren

 

And cannot protect us. We cannot let it wan

Our hope or faith that we will survive while

Still getting lost together. Let the past bygone

 

As well as this unexplored terrain. Every mile

Lost is another step gained from walking this

Path with you. Every tear and smile

 

Is worth it. We would never want to miss

Out on any of it. Getting lost is an adventure.

We are going into the dark hole and abyss.

Having Patience

Yes, we all go through changes (look on my blog post about that topic if you do not believe me), but a lot of the time we go through major changes and it takes time/patience to get through those major changes. Demi puts it this way. “Have patience. Even the greatest changes in our lives to occur.” Having patience (especially a lot of it) is a life lesson we could (including myself) all use. To be honest, I struggle with having patience, especially with people and things I truly care about. I am sure that everybody has a similar story to the one I am about to tell. Christmas has always been one of my favorite holidays growing up (in fact it still is). I would always get so excited and wake up early to open up my presents.

My patience also runs a little thin with people too. For example, there is this person I am dealing with (I will not name anybody specifically). Let us call this person K. I want to meet up with that person so badly, but it has not worked out and I have expressed my concern. This person told me to be patient with them. I am trying my best, but I told this person that they have to be patient with me (especially since I know that I am one of those people who loses their patience pretty easily most of the time). Patience in a sense is like what I call the waiting game… You have to be patient almost all the time. When you are waiting on the phone, waiting in traffic, waiting around for something to happen or for someone to show up, etc.

My point to all of this is the importance of having patience, waiting and not rushing into things. The automatic thing that we all do is to rush when there is no point in doing so. I found the perfect quote to tie it all together. “We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Over-thinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it evolve naturally.” In other words, just let it all happen the way it is supposed to (no matter if it changes from your original plans). So in other words be patient with people because you never know what they have dealt with or what they are dealing with right now. They are trying to sort out their life and so are you. Whatever you do, do not lose hope or take your frustration out on people (who may or may not deserve it). In other words, hang in there and ride it out. You have to realize that some things (or people) are worth the wait and some are not. That is just the way it goes.

The Waiting Game

The seconds are ticking by,

Then the minutes, and

Then the hours go by.

Who am I waiting for?

What I am waiting for?

Am I waiting for you?

Am I waiting for me?

Am I waiting for us?

Confusion. Anger.

Chaos.  Sadness.

Happiness. Guilt.

What am I feeling?

What should I be feeing?

 

More Time

You are not trying to push me,
But all you are asking for is a little bit
Of patience. You wanted to see

If I could hang on. I do not want to slit
My wrists without knowing what
This feels like. This life will not sit

Down and take a rest. This cut
Of the thread that holds us together
Cannot break anymore. I know that

I cannot let you float away like a feather
Or sink down like a heavy rock. We promised
Ourselves to get through this bad weather

No matter what. If we cannot be honest
With one another then we cannot
Deserve and feel the calmness

Washing over us like a wave. This shot
To the heavens cannot destroy this
Inner turmoil and fire. You caught

My heart and will not let go. The bliss
In our eyes will not be let go of. I
Wish that I would never have to miss

Some of these moments, but I have to lie
To myself for a little bit in order to survive
Through the chaos of life. To cry

Over the situation we have to live
Through is hard, but as long as you
Promise me that we will make it and thrive

Everything should be okay. The two
Of us should be able to handle this united.
It has to be us that will push through

Every battle. This is our own lighted
Path filled with obstacles and challenges.
This is our endless support that is unrequited.

Dealing With the Players

I am going to apologize ahead of time because I know that this is a topic that I am sure a lot of people are tired of hearing about, but I am going to talk about it anyways and I am sorry if I offend people or if any of this comes across as cruel. It is a subject that is important to me and should be important to everybody (especially the girls and women here because we deal with it on a daily basis). That topic is guys who are players (I am not talking about guys who play sports like hockey, baseball, basketball, etc.). These are guys who are smooth in terms of knowing what to do and what to say around women. I am sorry to say that these guys do not care about other people because they only care about themselves and their egos.

They manipulate women and try to (and for the most part succeed) get what they want. They are selfish and sometimes insecure. Trust me, I know this stuff because I have dealt with a guy like this before back when I was in college. Let us call him A (the same guy I talked about when I went to my friend’s wedding back in May). He has changed now, but he treated me so badly when we were in school together. We were on and off again for about 2 years before it all ended. Sure, he treated me pretty good some of the time and a lot of the time he treated me pretty terribly. I ended up getting hurt, but I am glad that it ended before it got super out of hand. The problem was that I kind of knew he was a player. I heard all these stories about him and other girls. In the end, I chose to ignore what people were saying and I pretended like everything was okay, but in the end, none of it was ever okay. I did not deserve to be treated that way. Of course, at the time I did not know who I was dealing with and in fact, before those experiences with A, I never dealt with someone like him before.

I am bringing this up because I had to talk through with my BFF Marcia (I will not go too much into detail, I promise) about a situation she was dealing with that brought up memories with A. She would be telling me about these things with that guy and it would remind me of A (in fact they could be twins or friends in real life). I gave her advice and told her that she should not be wasting her time on this guy (I know that she deserves someone better). The last thing I want to happen to her is to see her hurt. It sucks, but that type of guy would never care about us or how we feel. Let them deal with whatever they are dealing with and leave them alone. In the end, they are not worth our time and energy. I wrote this poem for my BFF Marcia, but this is for all the girls and women across the word who deal with these types of guys on daily basis. Cheers!

And to those guys who this post is directed towards, I hope that you know that you are doing yourself and girls you hurt a disservice. I hope that you gain a new perspective and realize that you are not only hurting yourself, but you are hurting girls who (for the most part) do not deserve it. I am also leaving this poem and quote for you. “Dear Players: Go ahead and play your deceitful little games – lying and manipulating women to get laid – because that’s the only way to get them interested. Maybe you’ll have a different perspective when you’re wiping the tears off your daughter’s face…because she dated a man like you.” (Charles J. Orlando) I really hope that would not take you that long to figure out what you are doing wrong. Take a look at yourself and think about what you should do to change. We are not play things and in the end it really hurts (especially our hearts). I hope that all the guys and girls take what I have to say to heart (no pun intended) because although these types of situations make good writing material, we would rather not see everybody getting hurt because it is painful.

Better Things

He is saying all the right things
And he is making all the right moves,
But you somehow know in
Your heart that he is doing the
Same thing to all the other
Girls too. It is not your fault
And it certainly is not their fault
That he is charming. He is a player
Because he has done this before.
He says that he will change,
But both you and the other girls
Know that will never happen.
Do not be fooled by his
Old fashioned ways or by
The way he treats you
Nicely because he only
Wants one thing. He wants
His fill of you and then
He will be done, leaving you
Heartbroken. I do not want
To see you hurt because
I know that you deserve better.
You deserve more than
Someone who only wants your body.
He will want your mind, body,
And everything else in between.
Although you are hurt now,
At least you know. So I hope
That you do what every strong
Girl does, hold your head up
And keep moving on to
Better things.

New Beginnings

I want to talk about a topic that has probably been on everybody’s mind (at some point or another) and that is new beginnings or fresh starts. Sometimes we all just need a redo or a refresh button (like we do on our computers) for our lives. It is a given that we all make mistakes and we are not always happy with how our lives are going. Sometimes that is what the new year is for, but this is not January. People always say that it is never too late to start over again. There is this quote by F. Scott Fitzgerald (people say it’s from the movie “A Curious Case of Benjamin Button) that I love so much. He says “For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”

Another thing we must talk about (since we are talking about new beginnings) is endings. Sometimes you cannot start something new if you have not already ended something. On the other hand we have to realize that there is no ending (never ending). So I hope that we can all learn to refresh, reset or end something because in fact, all of that takes courage and strength. On the other hand, none of that may be okay with other people, but it is whatever. This is our life and we can do whatever we want with it, even if it means starting all over again. We all need a new beginning (or at least to have the choice), a reset button, and a change of scenery (especially if we have been stuck in the same place).

Reset Button

I wish that we could all have

A reset button. A redo

Button to undo everything.

Every mistake, every memory,

But then life would be perfect.

There would be no faults, no

Cracks, and no imperfections.

That may be okay for some

People, but not for everybody.

 

Change of Scenery

It’s time to change scenery.

Life can get boring and tiring.

Life can get chaotic and lonely.

I want to pack bags and travel

The anywhere and everywhere

In the world. Life can get

Mundane and dull.

The world is mean to be

Explored and enjoyed.

Find something to be

Passionate about. Life isn’t

Always about putting down

Roots in one place. Home isn’t

Where you’re from, it’s about

Finding a place where you

Finally feel happy and where

You find peace and excitement.

Life isn’t always about pain

And sadness. It’s about

Dealing with it and enjoying

The scenery. It’s about looking

At the world around you.

It’s about looking at yourself and

Being able to breathe.

Cutting Ties

One of the most difficult things to do in this world is to cut ties with other people. It is difficult, but for the most part it is necessary (especially to cutting those ties with negative/toxic people). You do not want them to poison your spirits and to make things worse than what they already are. If you cannot cut ties with those people then your mind is telling you something. You have to dig deep and really think if you still want those people to be a part of your life. If the answer is no, you have to cut ties and show them the exit door. If the answer is yes, then they are good people. If the answer is I do not know (or I am unsure) then you really have to go with your gut (to figure it out). If you really have to think about it then that is telling you something.

It does not matter if you have been friends or in a relationship or are just acquaintances.  You should never let any of that cloud your judgment or the decisions you make. It should be clear that the people you are cutting ties with are not good for you at all. They will do anything to weigh you down, bring drama, and keep you back from finding someone or something better. It is just the way it goes. As Steve Maraboli puts it “The path to freedom is illuminated by the bridges you have burned, adorned by the ties you have cut, and cleared by the drama you have left behind. Let go. Be free.” In other words, cutting ties should feel freeing and rewarding. On the other hand, sometimes other people cut ties with you and sometimes they just up and leave you behind. In terms of that situation, it is oh well. You just have to think that they did not deserve you anyways.

To all my readers, I hope that you have the strength and courage to cut ties because as painful as it is, it is also a good thing to do. It is cleansing and in a sense it is like a detox (to the system). What is at stake is yourself (mind and body) and your health. It is all about what you deserve because as I said before you (and everybody else) deserves happiness. So hang in there. Remember that sometimes the people who you cut ties with deserve to be cut because they did something bad to you and the chances are that they are the ones who handed you the scissors to begin with. I hope these poems bring you peace and more understanding. Happy reading!!

Cutting Ties

Sometimes, cutting ties is the

Best thing to do. It’s better to

Move on rather dwelling

On sometimes that hurt you

Or that make you doubt

Everything that you thought

Existed. Holding onto

Something for that long can

Make you miss out on

Something good and

Miss out on something

That can change your life.

So do whatever it takes

To move on – deleting

Their number, deleting their

Facebook. You don’t need a

Constant reminder of what

Went wrong. It’s not your

Fault. People, they change.

They want and need

Different things they did

Before. They do nothing

But hurt other people. It

Doesn’t matter if you

Forgive them or not.

You’ve got to move

Forward. With life.

With love. With living

And breathing.

 

Detox

I have this irrational fear

Of running into you and

Not knowing what to do

Or what to say.

What if I freak out?

What if I run the other way?

Do you know how I feel?

It made me feel more alone

When you just up and left

With no reason to come back.

Do you know how much I hate you for that?

I am trying to get it all, including you,

Out of my system. It is all a detox of

The sad and bad things. It is like clearing

My system of all the hurt and toxins.

I am trying to let the anger dissolve

And slowly fade away. I am trying

To forgive you like I have

Done in the past. Forgive me while

I am trying to let go the

Disappointment and frustration.

Do not be mad when I am trying

To move on and completely forget

About you. It feels like by the time

You are willing and ready, I will

Be already done with you.

I will not let you become

My crutch and drug anymore.

I will not cave and give in to you.

I will not relapse and overdose.

You were my antidote. Now I am

The antidote for myself.

I am my own detox. I am my own.